these past couple weeks have really been testing me.

and someone who was there for me when no one wasnt is leaving for the military in a couple weeks.
and the resitance to see hiim is just growing all the more.
but i guess its with both parties.
and then i figured out.
i cant make connections with any individuals in any ways shape or form because of my huge fear of them
and idk.
things are going well.
while everything just seems to fall apart.

kind of a whole law of diminishing utility/returns kind of deal.